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Seeking Jesus in this crazy journey

Standing in the Gap

This phrase has been heavy on my heart and mind.  I’ve woken up with it in the middle of the night.  I’ve been thinking about the imagery and the importance of it.  I want to press into what that actually looks like for me.

There are ‘gaps’ all around me.  We talk about the huge global disparities, how the social systems we work with are flawed and lacking, how the government and the Church are missing the mark.

I see these gaps.  I usually tippy-toe around them or ignore them if I can.  They are often deep and raw and terrifying.

Ezekiel 22 talks about how detestable Jerusalem has become.  Verse 30 says: “I looked for someone among them who would build up the wall and stand before me in the gap on behalf of the land so I would not have to destroy it, but I found no one.”

Let that not be said of me.

There is a gap between my life in Canada and my friends’ lives in the DRC.  Tonight I go to bed secure and they are on the brink of a political explosion and even more civil unrest. Let me stand in the gap for them.

There is a gap between my kids’ lives and the lives’ of children in South Africa.  Tonight we tucked our boys in and kissed them and read to them.  Tonight other kids whose names I know and whose stories I’ve heard, are tucking each other in and praying that someone doesn’t break into their house during the night.  Let me stand in the gap for them.

There is a gap in our child and family services that leaves kids alone.  Babies in group homes, kids bouncing between families, teens aging out of care… Something is wrong.  There is a gap between what we know needs to happen and what is happening.  Let me stand in the gap.

Let me pray.  Let me do.  Let me give.  Let me advocate.

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What do I want?

I want to experience Jesus.  I want to know him, talk to him, listen to him, be more like him.

I want that for my people.  For my family, my kids, my friends, my church.  The more we experience Jesus, the better we will love and live.  We will desire to step into the real-life, messy, complicated, broken pieces of our world.  And that could change everything.

That has changed everything for us.

As we’ve desired to seek Jesus, we have walked some hard roads.  We have said yes to some really hard things that have broken our hearts.  We’ve made big decisions that have been formative in our life and our journey with Jesus.  But we’ve also made little choices to just show up.  To just take some baby steps.  To not run away when we’re terrified.

And through that, we are experiencing Jesus.


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To God be the Glory

We’ve been praying for a miracle. We trust that we could have a miracle. If God gave us a miracle, imagine how he would be glorified. It would testify to our powerful God who is more than capable of healing.

And yet today there was no miracle.

I can picture how awesome a miracle would be. I can’t picture what could be better.

So if God is working all things for his glory, I have to trust that somehow he will not just be glorified in my sickness; he will be BETTER glorified in my sickness than in my healing. Better glorified BECAUSE I have cancer.

Let’s pray that he gives us a glimmer of how he is being glorified.

Thanks for loving us, for praying for us, and for journeying this road with us. We are blessed to have you.

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